The first object
which saluted my eyes when I arrived on the coast was the sea, and a slave ship, which was then riding at anchor, and waiting
for its cargo. These filled me with astonishment, which was soon converted into terror when I was carried on board. I was
immediately handled and tossed up to see if I were found by some of the crew; and I was now persuaded that I had gotten into
a world of bad spirits, and that they were going to kill me. Their complexions too differing so much from ours, their long
hair, and the language they spoke (which was very different from any I had ever heard), united to confirm me in this belief.
Indeed such were the horrors of my views and fears at the moment, that, if ten thousand worlds had been my own I would have
freely parted with them all to have exchanged my condition with that of the meanest slave in my own country. When I looked
round the ship too and saw a large furnace or copper boiling, and a multitude of black people of every description chained
together, every one of their countenances expressing dejection and sorrow, I no longer doubted of my fate; and quite overpowered
with horror and anguish, I fell motionless on the deck and fainted. When I recovered a little I found some black people about
me, who I believed were some of those who brought me on board, and had been receiving their pay; they talked to me in order
to cheer me, but all in vain. I asked them if we were not to be eaten by those white men with horrible looks, red faces, and
loose hair. They told me I was not; and one of the crew brought me a small portion of spirituous liquor in a wine glass; but,
being afraid of him, I would not take it out of his hand. One of the blacks therefore took it from him and gave it to me,
and I took a little down my palate, which, instead of reviving me, as they thought it would, threw me into the greatest consternation
at the strange feeling it produced having never tasted any such liquor before. Soon after this the blacks who brought me on
board went off, and left me abandoned to despair…. I now saw myself deprived of all chance of returning to my native
country, or even the least glimpse of hope of gaining the shore which I now considered as friendly; and I even wished for
my former slavery in preference to my present situation, which was filled with horrors of every kind, still heightened by
my ignorance of what I was to undergo. I was not long suffered to indulge my grief; I was soon put down hinder the decks,
and there I received such a salutation in my nostrils as I had never experienced in my life: so that, with the loathsomeness
of the stench and crying together, I became so sick and low that I was not able to eat, nor had I the least desire to taste
anything. I now wished for the last friend, death, to relieve me; but soon, to my grief, two of the white men offered me eatables;
and on my refusing to eat, one of them held me fast by the hands, and laid me across I think the windlass and tied my feet,
while the other flogged me severely. I had never experienced anything of this kind before; and although, not being used to
the water, I naturally feared that element the first time I saw it, yet nevertheless, could I have got over the nettings,
I would have jumped over the side, but I could not; and, besides, the crew used to watch us very closely who were not chained
down to the decks, lest we should leap into the water: and I have seen some of these poor African prisoners most severely
cut for attempting to do so, and hourly whipped for not eating. This indeed was often the case with myself. In a little time
after, amongst the poor chained men, I found some of my own nation, which in a small degree gave ease to my mind. I inquired
of these what was to be done with us; they gave me to understand we were to be carried to these white people's country to
work for them…. I then was a little revived, and thought, if it were no worse than working, my situation was not so
desperate: but still I feared I should be put to death, the white people looked and acted, as I thought, in so savage a manner;
for I had never seen among any people such instances of brutal cruelty; and this not only shewn towards us blacks, but also
to some of the whites themselves. One white man in particular I saw, when we were permitted to be on deck, flogged so unmercifully
with a large rope near the foremast that he died in consequence of it; and they tossed him over the side as they would have
done a brute. This made me fear these people the more; and I expected nothing less than to be treated in the same manner.
I could not help expressing my fears and apprehensions to some of my countrymen: I asked them if these people had no country,
but lived in this hollow place (the ship): they told me they did not, but came from a distant one. 'Then,' said I, 'how comes
it in all our country we never heard of them?' They told me because they lived so very far off. I then asked where were their
women? had they any like themselves? I was told they had: 'and why,' said I, 'do we not see them?' They answered, because
they were left behind. I asked how the vessel could go? They told me they could not tell; but that there were cloths put upon
the masts by the help of the ropes I saw, and then the vessel went on; and the white men had some spell or magic they put
in the water when they liked in order to stop the vessel. I was exceedingly amazed at this account, and really thought they
were spirits. I therefore wished much to be from amongst them, for I expected they would sacrifice me: but my wishes were
vain; for we were so quartered that it was impossible for any of us to make our escape….At last, when the ship we were
in had got in all her cargo, they made ready with many fearful noises, and we were all put under deck, so that we could not
see how they managed the vessel. But this disappointment was the least of my sorrow. The stench of the hold while we were
on the coast was so in tolerably loathsome, that it was dangerous to remain there for any time, and some of us had been permitted
to stay on the deck for the fresh air; but now that the whole ship's cargo were confined together, it became absolutely pestilential.
The closeness of the place, and the heat of the climate, added to the number in the ship, which was so crowded that each had
scarcely room to turn himself, almost suffocated us. This produced copious perspirations, so that the air soon became unfit
for respiration, from a variety of loathsome smells, and brought on a sickness among the slaves, of which many died, ….This
wretched situation was again aggravated by the galling of the chains, …. The shrieks of the women, and the groans of
the dying, rendered the whole a scene of horror almost inconceivable. Happily perhaps for myself I was soon reduced so low
here that it was thought necessary to keep me almost always on deck; and from my extreme youth I was not put in fetters. In
this situation I expected every hour to share the fate of my companions, some of whom were almost daily brought upon deck
at the point of death, which I began to hope would soon put an end to my miseries. ….One day they had taken a number
of fishes and when they had killed and satisfied themselves with as many as they thought fit, to our astonishment who were
on the deck, rather than give any of them to us to eat as we expected, they tossed the remaining fish into the sea again,
although we begged and prayed for some as well as we could, but in vain; and some of my countrymen, being pressed by hunger,
took an opportunity, when they thought no one saw them, of trying to get a little privately; but they were discovered, and
the attempt procured them some very severe floggings. One day, when we had a smooth sea and moderate wind, two of my wearied
countrymen who were chained together (I was near them at the time), preferring death to such a life of misery, somehow made
through the nettings and jumped into the sea: immediately another quite dejected fellow, who, on account of his illness, was
suffered to be out of irons, also followed their example; and I believe many more would very soon have done the same if they
had not been prevented by the ship's crew, who were instantly alarmed….
We were not many
days in the merchant's custody before we were sold after their usual manner, which is this: On a signal given (as the beat
of a drum), the buyers rush at once into the yard where the slaves are confined, and make choice of that parcel they like
best. The noise and clamour with which this is attended, and the eagerness visible in the countenances of the buyers serve
not a little to increase the apprehensions of the terrified Africans, who may well be supposed to consider them as the ministers
of that destruction to which they think themselves devoted. In this manner, without scruple, are relations and friends separated,
most of them never to see each other again. I remember in the vessel in which I was brought over, in the men's apartment,
there were several brothers, who, in the sale, were sold in different lots; and it was very moving on this occasion to see
and hear their cries at parting. O, ye nominal Christians! might not an African ask you, learned you this from your God, who
says unto you, Do unto all men as you would men should do unto you? Is it not enough that we are torn from our country and
friends to toil for your luxury and lust of gain? Must every tender feeling be likewise sacrificed to your avarice? Are the
dearest friends and relations, now rendered more dear by their separation from their kindred, still to be parted from each
other, and thus prevented from cheering the gloom of slavery with the small comfort of being together and mingling their sufferings
and sorrows? Why are parents to lose their children, brothers their sisters, or husbands their wives? Surely this is a new
refinement in cruelty, which, while it has no advantage to atone for it, thus aggravates distress, and adds fresh horrors
even to the wretchedness of slavery.
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