The dark uniforms of the men were so coated with dust from the
incessant wrestling of the two armies that the regiment almost seemed a part of the clay bank which shielded them from the
shells. On the top of the hill a battery was arguing in tremendous roars with some other guns, and to the eye of the infantry,
the artillerymen, the guns, the caissons, the horses, were distinctly outlined upon the blue sky. When a piece was fired,
a red streak as round as a log flashed low in the heavens, like a monstrous bolt of lightning. The men of the battery wore
white duck trousers, which somehow emphasised their legs: and when they ran and crowded in little groups at the bidding of
the shouting officers, it was more impressive than usual to the infantry.
Fred Collins, of A Company, was saying: "Thunder, I wisht I had
a drink. Ain't there any water round here?" Then, somebody yelled: "There goes th' bugler!"
As the eyes of half the regiment swept in one machine-like movement,
here was an instant's picture of a horse in a great convulsive leap of a death-wound and a rider leaning back with a crooked
arm and spread fingers before his face. On the ground was the crimson terror of an exploding shell, with fibres of flame that
seemed like lances. A glittering bugle swung clear of the rider's back as fell headlong the horse and the man. In the air
was an odour as from a conflagration.
Sometimes they of the infantry looked down at a fair little meadow
which spread at their feet. Its long, green grass was rippling gently in a breeze. Beyond it was the grey form of a house
half torn to pieces by shells and by the busy axes of soldiers who had pursued firewood. The line of an old fence was now
dimly marked by long weeds and by an occasional post. A shell had blown the well-house to fragments. Little lines of grey
smoke ribboning upward from some embers indicated the place where had stood the barn.
From beyond a curtain of green woods there came the sound of
some stupendous scuffle, as if two animals of the size of islands were fighting. At a distance there were occasional appearances
of swift- moving men, horses, batteries, flags, and, with the crashing of infantry volleys were heard, often, wild and frenzied
cheers. In the midst of it all Smith and Ferguson, two privates of A Company, were engaged in a heated discussion,
which involved the greatest questions of the national existence.
The battery on the hill presently engaged in a frightful duel.
The white legs of the gunners scampered this way and that way, and the officers redoubled their shouts. The guns, with their
demeanours of stolidity and courage, were typical of something infinitely self-possessed in this clamour of death that swirled
around the hill.
One of a "swing" team was suddenly smitten quivering to the ground,
and his maddened brethren dragged his torn body in their struggle to escape from this turmoil and danger. A young soldier
astride one of the leaders swore and fumed in his saddle, and furiously jerked at the bridle. An officer screamed out an order
so violently that his voice broke and ended the sentence in a falsetto shriek.
The leading company of the infantry regiment was somewhat exposed,
and the colonel ordered it moved more fully under the shelter of the hill. There was the clank of steel against steel.
A lieutenant of the battery rode down and passed them, holding
his right arm carefully in his left hand. And it was as if this arm was not at all a part of him, but belonged to another
man. His sober and reflective charger went slowly. The officer's face was grimy and perspiring, and his uniform was tousled
as if he had been in direct grapple with an enemy. He smiled grimly when the men stared at him. He turned his horse toward
Collins, of A Company, said: "I wisht I had a drink. I bet there's
water in that there ol' well yonder!"
"Yes; but how you goin' to git it?"
For the little meadow which intervened was now suffering a terrible
onslaught of shells. Its green and beautiful calm had vanished utterly. Brown earth was being flung in monstrous handfuls.
And there was a massacre of the young blades of grass. They were being torn, burned, obliterated. Some curious fortune of
the battle had made this gentle little meadow the object of the red hate of the shells, and each one as it exploded seemed
like an imprecation in the face of a maiden.
The wounded officer who was riding across this expanse said to
himself: "Why, they couldn't shoot any harder if the whole army was massed here!"
A shell struck the grey ruins of the house, and as, after the
roar, the shattered wall fell in fragments, there was a noise which resembled the flapping of shutters during a wild gale
of winter. Indeed, the infantry paused in the shelter of the bank appeared as men standing upon a shore contemplating a madness
of the sea. The angel of calamity had under its glance the battery upon the hill. Fewer white-legged men laboured about the
guns. A shell had smitten one of the pieces, and after the flare, the smoke, the dust, the wrath of this blow were gone, it
was possible to see white lugs stretched horizontally upon the ground. And at that interval to the rear, where it is the business
of battery horses to stand with their noses to the fight awaiting the command to drag their guns out of the destruction, or
into it, or wheresoever these incomprehensible humans demanded with whip and spur--in this line of passive and dumb spectators,
whose fluttering hearts yet would not let them forget the iron laws of man's control of them--in this rank of brute-soldiers
there had been relentless and hideous carnage. From the ruck of bleeding and prostrate horses, the men of the infantry could
see one animal raising its stricken body with its fore legs, and turning its nose with mystic and profound eloquence toward
Some comrades joked Collins about his thirst. "Well, if yeh want
a drink so bad, why don't yeh go git it?"
"Well, I will in a minnet, if yeh don't shut up!"
A lieutenant of artillery floundered his horse straight down
the hill with as little concern as if it were level ground. As he galloped past the colonel of the infantry, he threw up his
hand in swift salute. "We've got to get out of that," he roared angrily. He was a black-
bearded officer, and his eyes,
which resembled beads, sparkled like those of an insane man. His jumping horse sped along the column of infantry.
The fat major, standing carelessly with his sword held horizontally
behind him and with his legs far apart, looked after the receding horseman and laughed. "He wants to get back with orders
pretty quick, or there'll be no batt'ry left," he observed.
The wise young captain of the second company hazarded to the
lieutenant- colonel that the enemy's infantry would probably soon attack the hill, and the lieutenant-colonel snubbed him.
A private in one of the rear companies looked out over the meadow,
and then turned to a companion and said, "Look there, Jim!" It was the wounded officer from the battery, who some time before
had started to ride across the meadow, supporting his right arm carefully with his left hand. This man had encountered a shell
apparently at a time when no one perceived him, and he could now be seen lying face downward with a stirruped foot stretched
across the body of his dead horse. A leg of the charger extended slantingly upward precisely as stiff as a stake. Around this
motionless pair the shells still howled.
There was a quarrel in A Company. Collins was shaking his fist
in the faces of some laughing comrades. "Dern yeh! I ain't afraid t' go. If yeh say much, I will go!"
"Of course, yeh will! You'll run through that there medder, won't
Collins said, in a terrible voice: "You see now!" At this ominous
threat his comrades broke into renewed jeers.
Collins gave them a dark scowl, and went to find his captain.
The latter was conversing with the colonel of the regiment.
"Captain," said Collins, saluting and standing at attention--in
those days all trousers bagged at the knees--"Captain, I wan't t' get permission to go git some water from that there well
The colonel and the captain swung about simultaneously and stared
across the meadow. The captain laughed. "You must be pretty thirsty, Collins?"
"Yes, sir, I am."
"Well--ah," said the captain. After a moment, he asked, "Can't
The colonel was watching Collins's face. "Look here, my lad,"
he said, in a pious sort of a voice--"Look here, my lad"--Collins was not a lad--"don't you think that's taking pretty big
risks for a little drink of water."
"I dunno," said Collins uncomfortably. Some of the resentment
toward his companions, which perhaps had forced him into this affair, was beginning to fade. "I dunno wether 'tis."
The colonel and the captain contemplated him for a time.
"Well," said the captain finally.
"Well," said the colonel, "if you want to go, why, go."
Collins saluted. "Much obliged t' yeh."
As he moved away the colonel called after him. "Take some of
the other boys' canteens with you an' hurry back now."
"Yes, sir, I will."
The colonel and the captain looked at each other then, for it
had suddenly occurred that they could not for the life of them tell whether Collins wanted to go or whether he did not.
They turned to regard Collins, and as they perceived him surrounded
by gesticulating comrades, the colonel said: "Well, by thunder! I guess he's going."
Collins appeared as a man dreaming. In the midst of the questions,
the advice, the warnings, all the excited talk of his company mates, he maintained a curious silence.
They were very busy in preparing him for his ordeal. When they
inspected him carefully, it was somewhat like the examination that grooms give a horse before a race; and they were amazed,
staggered by the whole affair. Their astonishment found vent in strange repetitions.
"Are yeh sure a-goin'?" they demanded again and again.
"Certainly I am," cried Collins at last furiously.
He strode sullenly away from them. He was swinging five or six
canteens by their cords. It seemed that his cap would not remain firmly on his head, and often he reached and pulled it down
over his brow.
There was a general movement in the compact column. The long
animal-like thing moved slightly. Its four hundred eyes were turned upon the figure of Collins.
"Well, sir, if that ain't th' derndest thing! I never thought
Fred Collins had the blood in him for that kind of business."
"What's he goin' to do, anyhow?"
"He's goin' to that well there after water."
"We ain't dyin' of thirst, are we? That's foolishness."
"Well, somebody put him up to it, an' he's doin' it."
"Say, he must be a desperate cuss."
When Collins faced the meadow and walked away from the regiment,
he was vaguely conscious that a chasm, the deep valley of all prides, was suddenly between him and his comrades. It was provisional,
but the provision was that he return as a victor. He had blindly been led by quaint emotions, and laid himself under an obligation
to walk squarely up to the face of death.
But he was not sure that he wished to make a retraction, even
if he could do so without shame. As a matter of truth, he was sure of very little. He was mainly surprised.
It seemed to him supernaturally strange that he had allowed his
mind to manoeuvre his body into such a situation. He understood that it might be called dramatically great.
However, he had no full appreciation of anything, excepting that
he was actually conscious of being dazed. He could feel his dulled mid groping after the form and colour of this incident.
He wondered why he did not feel some keen agony of fear cutting his sense like a knife. He wondered at this, because human
expression had said loudly for centuries that men should feel afraid of certain things, and that all men who did not feel
fear were phenomena--heroes.
He was, then, a hero. He suffered that disappointment which we
would all have if we discovered that we were ourselves capable of those deeds which we most admire in history and legend.
This, then, was a hero. After all, heroes were not much.
No, it could not be true. He was not a hero. Heroes had no shames
in their lives, and, as for him, he remembered borrowing fifteen dollars from a friend and promising to pay it back the next
day, and then avoiding that friend for ten months. When at home his mother had aroused him for the early labour of his life
on the farm, it had often been his fashion to be irritable, childish, diabolical; and his mother had died since he had come
to the war.
He saw that, in this matter of the well, the canteens, the shells,
he was an intruder in the land of fine deeds.
He was now about thirty paces from his comrades. The regiment
had just turned its many faces toward him.
From the forest of terrific noises there suddenly emerged a little
uneven line of men. They fired fiercely and rapidly at distant foliage on which appeared little puffs of white smoke. The
spatter of skirmish firing was added to the thunder of the guns on the hill. The little line of men ran forward. A colour-sergeant
fell flat with his flag as if he had slipped on ice. There was hoarse cheering from this distant field.
Collins suddenly felt that two demon fingers were pressed into
his ears. He could see nothing but flying arrows, flaming red. He lurched from the shock of this explosion, but he made a
mad rush for the house, which he viewed as a man submerged to the neck in a boiling surf might
view the shore. In the air, little pieces of shell howled and the earthquake explosions drove him insane with the menace of
their roar. As he ran the canteens knocked together with a rhythmical tinkling.
As he neared the house, each detail of the scene became vivid
to him. He was aware of some bricks of the vanished chimney lying on the sod. There was a door which hung by one hinge.
Rifle bullets called forth by the insistent skirmishers came
from the far-off bank of foliage. They mingled with the shells and the pieces of hells until the air was torn in all directions
by hootings, yells, howls. The sky was full of fiends who directed all their wild rage at his head.
When he came to the well, he flung himself face downward and
peered into its darkness. There were furtive silver glintings some feet from the surface. He grabbed one of the canteens,
and, unfastening its cap, swung it down by the cord. The water flowed slowly in with an indolent gurgle.
And now as he lay with his face turned away he was suddenly smitten
with the terror. It came upon his heart like the grasp of claws. All the power faded from his muscles. For an instant he was
no more than a dead man.
The canteen filled with a maddening slowness, in the manner of
all bottles. Presently he recovered his strength and addressed a screaming oath to it. He leaned over until it seemed as if
he intended to try to push water into it with his hands. His eyes as he gazed down into the well shone like two pieces of
metal, and in their expression was a great appeal and a great curse. The stupid water derided him.
There was the blaring thunder of a shell. Crimson light shone
through the swift-boiling smoke, and made a pink reflection on part of the wall of the well. Collins jerked out his arm and
canteen with the same motion that a man would use in withdrawing his head from a furnace.
He scrambled erect and glared and hesitated. On the ground near
him lay the old well bucket, with a length of rusty chain. He lowered it swiftly into the well. The bucket struck the water
and then, turning lazily over, sank. When, with hand reaching tremblingly over hand, he hauled it out, it knocked often against
the walls of the well and spilled some of its contents.
In running with a filled bucket, a man can adopt but one kind
of gait. So through this terrible field, over which screamed practical angels of death, Collins ran in the manner of a farmer
chased out of a dairy by a bull.
His face went staring white with anticipation--anticipation of
a blow that would whirl him around and down. He would fall as he had seen other men fall, the life knocked out of them so
suddenly that their knees were no more quick to touch the ground than their heads. He saw the long blue line of the regiment,
but his comrades were standing looking at him from the edge of an impossible star. He was aware of some deep wheel-ruts and
hoof-prints in the sod beneath his feet.
The artillery officer who had fallen in this meadow had been
making groans in the teeth of the tempest of sound. These futile cries, wrenched from him by his agony, were heard only by
shells, bullets. When wild-eyed Collins came running, this officer raised himself. His face contorted and blanched from pain,
he was about to utter some great beseeching cry. But suddenly his face straightened and he called:
"Say, young man, give me a drink of water, will you?"
Collins had no room amid his emotions for surprise. He was mad
from the threats of destruction.
"I can't!" he screamed, and in his reply was a full description
of his quaking apprehension. His cap was gone and his hair was riotous. His clothes made it appear that he had been dragged
over the ground by the heels. He ran on.
The officer's head sank down, and one elbow crooked. His foot
in its brass-bound stirrup still stretched over the body of his horse, and the other leg was under the steed.
But Collins turned. He came dashing back. His face had now turned
grey, and in his eyes was all terror. "Here it is! here it is!"
The officer was as a man gone in drink. His arm bent like a twig.
His head drooped as if his neck were of willow. He was sinking to the ground, to lie face downward.
Collins grabbed him by the shoulder. "Here it is. Here's your
drink. Turn over. Turn over, man, for God's sake!"
With Collins hauling at his shoulder, the officer twisted his
body and fell with his face turned toward that region where lived the unspeakable noises of the swirling missiles. There was
the faintest shadow of a smile on his lips as he looked at Collins. He gave a sigh, a little primitive breath like that from
Collins tried to hold the bucket steadily, but his shaking hands
caused the water to splash all over the face of the dying man. Then he jerked it away and ran on.
The regiment gave him a welcoming roar. The grimed faces were
wrinkled in laughter.
His captain waved the bucket away. "Give it to the men!"
The two genial, skylarking young lieutenants were the first to
gain possession of it. They played over it in their fashion.
When one tried to drink the other teasingly knocked his elbow.
"Don't, Billie! You'll make me spill it," said the one. The other laughed.
Suddenly there was an oath, the thud of wood on the ground, and
a swift murmur of astonishment among the ranks. The two lieutenants glared at each other. The bucket lay on the ground empty.